A few months ago I wrote this half term report for my beloved Blackburn Rovers. Reading it back now it's clear to see I was full of optimism and hope. We had beaten Liverpool, were sitting seventh in the table, big Chris was extending his contract, there was talk of Ronaldinho arriving at Ewood. All was rosy. I was a fool.A run of 11 games without a win saw Blackburn plummet down the table. The occasional highlights, a 0-0 away at Arsenal were scant consolation. We've been playing OK and our younger players - Jones, Hoillett, Olsson - are starting to shine but it might, just might, be too late. We sit on the precipice of relegation.The permutations are too numerous to list here so read this before carrying on.
Makes your head hurt doesn’t it? The bookies have us at 13-1 to go down so they think we're safe but I’m not so sure. I have that feeling in my water. That we’re going down feeling.
Getting in to work on Monday I couldn’t wait to talk goal difference, Blackpool’s chances at Man U or whether Spurs really want the distraction of Europa league football next season but I work in PR and the two people who sit across from me looked at me with blank faces, “Wolves?”
All week, and to anyone who will listen I have been going on about it. Now as the day gets closer all I want is silence and solitude so I’ll be at home listening to the game on the radio suffering alone at home in Streatham. I’d planned to make the trip to Molineux but left it too late to get a ticket. I phoned my two Wolves supporting friends to see if they could sneak me in. One was up a Church steeple when I called - he is a stonemason not a daredevil - the other, who has even been the Wolves mascot was in less dramatic surroundings but both were as aggrieved as me. Both will be at weddings. I wonder how many others will be in Church checking the modern day equivalent of a transistor radio for the scores?
I've suffered the highs of the final day - winning the league at Anfield in 95 - but this is unbearable. I just want it to all be over.
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